A Borrowing of Misery
A
sermon delivered by Rev. Peter T. Atkinson
September
4, 2016
at
Gordonsville Presbyterian Church, Gordonsville, Virginia
Ecclesiastes 4: 1-12
2 Corinthians 1: 3-7
Let us pray,
Help us to see despite
our eyes
Help us to think outside
of our minds
Help us to be more than
our lives
For your eyes show the
way
Your
mind knows the truth
Your
being is the life.
Amen.
3 Blessed
be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and the
God of all consolation, 4 who consoles us in all our
affliction, so that we may be able to console those who are in any affliction
with the consolation with which we ourselves are consoled by God. 5 For
just as the sufferings of Christ are abundant for us, so also our consolation
is abundant through Christ. 6 If we are being afflicted, it is
for your consolation and salvation; if we are being consoled, it is for your
consolation, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings
that we are also suffering. 7 Our hope for you is unshaken; for
we know that as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our
consolation.
I wanted to put Shakespeare behind us,
for football and school are here and that means that the summer is over, and
I’m sure that DeAnna and the girls are feeling that way too, as they travel
back here this afternoon, having been run from the coast by the hurricane. We
had a good run with Willie, and if you can think back to all of the ground that
we covered this summer, it has been quite a lot. We were roused by Henry V’s
pep talk, journeyed through the questions of action and inaction through three
weeks of Hamlet. We looked at the villainous action of Richard III, Macbeth,
Edmund from King Lear. We asked with Juliet about the importance of names,
especially that name of Jesus. We pondered an idea of love alongside one of
Shakespeare’s sonnets, and we challenged the notion that all the world is a
stage, and that we, human beings, are merely players. We covered most of what I
wanted to get to. There was one episode from The Tempest I thought I wanted to do, but it never quite fit right.
So what next? I was thinking that I
really enjoyed working with literature and having it send me into scripture. It
has been great, not searching for proof texts, but using the themes of the
literature to challenge or bring to life the poetic ideas. So I thought about
continuing that, but heading out of Shakespeare. I thought, that at least this
week I’d try it, and I was drawn to John Donne’s famous, “No Man is an Island.”
And I wasn’t sure if it was right, until I got a phone call from Mom the other
night, and like so many times before the events of life, even the small ones,
seemed to align perfectly, and make my direction for this week’s sermon clear.
To start let me read for you John Donne’s “Meditation 17,” but let me tell you
a little about John Donne first. Donne was a contemporary of Shakespeare, though
of a generation younger. He was a poet, and also a cleric in the Church of
England. He wrote many sacred works, and the Meditations from which 17 comes,
was part of a devotional type book that he wrote for his parishioners. Each of
the Meditations would take an idea and delve into the spiritual and life
ramifications of it. The idea is very similar to the devotional books that are
often used today, like Guideposts, or “My Utmost for his Highest” . . . stuff
like that. Meditation 17 is written based on the latin phrase:
NUNC LENTO SONITU DICUNT, MORIERIS.
Now this bell tolling
softly for another,
says to me, Thou must die
says to me, Thou must die
I’ve
always, and I don’t know how accurate it is, but I’ve always pictured, Donne, a
somber man, listening to the funeral bells tolling, and allowing his mind to go
out in empathy and love, trying to feel each bell tolling personally, as if he
himself was participating in the death and funeral of a stranger. . . and then
felt compelled to write this famous meditation:
PERCHANCE
he for whom this bell tolls may be so ill as that he knows not it tolls for
him. And perchance I may think myself so much better than I am, as that
they who are about me, and see my state, may have caused it to toll for me, and
I know not that. The church is catholic, universal, so are all her
actions; all that she does, belongs to all. When she baptizes a child,
that action concerns me; for that child is thereby connected to that head which
is my head too, and ingraffed into that body, whereof I am a member. And
when she buries a man, that action concerns me; all mankind is of one author,
and is one volume; when one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book,
but translated into a better language; and every chapter must be so translated;
God employs several translators; some pieces are translated by age, some by
sickness, some by war, some by justice; but God's hand is in every translation,
and his hand shall bind up all our scattered leaves again, for that library
where every book shall lie open to one another; as therefore the bell that
rings to a sermon, calls not upon the preacher only, but upon the congregation
to come; so this bell calls us all: but how much more me, who am brought so
near the door by this sickness.
There was a contention as far as a suit (in which, piety and dignity, religion and estimation, were mingled) which of the religious orders should ring to prayers first in the morning; and it was determined, that they should ring first that rose earliest. If we understand aright the dignity of this bell, that tolls for our evening prayer, we would be glad to make it ours, by rising early, in that application, that it might be ours as well as his, whose indeed it is. The bell doth toll for him, that thinks it doth; and though it intermit again, yet from that minute, that that occasion wrought upon him, he is united to God. Who casts not up his eye to the sun when it rises? But who takes off his eye from a comet, when that breaks out? who bends not his ear to any bell, which upon any occasion rings? But who can remove it from that bell, which is passing a piece of himself out of this world?
No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main; if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend's or of thine own were; any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.
Neither can we call this a begging of misery, or a borrowing of misery, as though we were not miserable enough of ourselves, but must fetch in more from the next house, in taking upon us the misery of our neighbors. Truly it were an excusable covetousness if we did; for affliction is a treasure, and scarce any man hath enough of it. No man hath afflicion enough, that is not matured and ripened by it, and made fit for God by that affliction. If a man carry treasure in bullion or in a wedge of gold, and have none coined into current moneys, his treasure will not defray him as he travels. Tribulation is treasure in the nature of it, but it is not current money in the use of it, except we get nearer and nearer our home, heaven, by it. Another may be sick too, and sick to death, and this affliction may lie in his bowels, as gold in a mine, and be of no use to him; but this bell that tells me of his affliction, digs out, and applies that gold to me: if by this consideration of another's danger, I take mine own into contemplation, and so secure myself, by making my recourse to my God, who is our only security.
There was a contention as far as a suit (in which, piety and dignity, religion and estimation, were mingled) which of the religious orders should ring to prayers first in the morning; and it was determined, that they should ring first that rose earliest. If we understand aright the dignity of this bell, that tolls for our evening prayer, we would be glad to make it ours, by rising early, in that application, that it might be ours as well as his, whose indeed it is. The bell doth toll for him, that thinks it doth; and though it intermit again, yet from that minute, that that occasion wrought upon him, he is united to God. Who casts not up his eye to the sun when it rises? But who takes off his eye from a comet, when that breaks out? who bends not his ear to any bell, which upon any occasion rings? But who can remove it from that bell, which is passing a piece of himself out of this world?
No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main; if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend's or of thine own were; any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.
Neither can we call this a begging of misery, or a borrowing of misery, as though we were not miserable enough of ourselves, but must fetch in more from the next house, in taking upon us the misery of our neighbors. Truly it were an excusable covetousness if we did; for affliction is a treasure, and scarce any man hath enough of it. No man hath afflicion enough, that is not matured and ripened by it, and made fit for God by that affliction. If a man carry treasure in bullion or in a wedge of gold, and have none coined into current moneys, his treasure will not defray him as he travels. Tribulation is treasure in the nature of it, but it is not current money in the use of it, except we get nearer and nearer our home, heaven, by it. Another may be sick too, and sick to death, and this affliction may lie in his bowels, as gold in a mine, and be of no use to him; but this bell that tells me of his affliction, digs out, and applies that gold to me: if by this consideration of another's danger, I take mine own into contemplation, and so secure myself, by making my recourse to my God, who is our only security.
Have
any of you ever heard those words before, either in part or in full? For Ernest
Hemingway fans, his novel “For Whom the Bell Tolls” takes the middle paragraph,
and uses it for his title and the epigram opening that great work. This is a
statement about humanity, about how we are all connected, and involved in the
lives of each other, that we are all in this crazy world together, and that we
all share the same fate. He sees the affliction of others, and like we are to
remember our Baptism when we see another baptized, he remembers his own death,
his own frailty, his own vulnerability as a mortal on this Earth, and makes his
“recourse to God” who he says is our “only security.” What do you think about
his meditation? What do you think about the connectedness of all things? What
do you feel inside when you hear of the death or affliction of another, of a
loved one, of a friend, what about a complete stranger, what about someone on
the other side of the Earth? Are we saddened? Or is it more? Or have we become
numbed to it all? Have we gotten so callous by the news, and so jaded by the
widespread violence and injustice in the world, or have we just seen too much, has
it become unreal to us, because it is so vast, so in our face, so often, and
much too, too big to do anything about? Are we reminded of our own mortality as
Donne says he is, and if so what does that do to us? Would we rather run from
such realizations, flee from morbid thoughts of our own ends. There is so much
around us, so much pain, violence, confusion, affliction, if we were to be
moved by it, could we even function? These are the questions that were flowing
through my head this week as I was studying Donne. . . .and it didn’t take me
too long to find some of Donne’s scriptural source material. This morning’s new
testament lesson screams the same message
3 Blessed
be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and the
God of all consolation, 4 who consoles us in all our
affliction, so that we may be able to console those who are in any affliction
with the consolation with which we ourselves are consoled by God. 5 For
just as the sufferings of Christ are abundant for us, so also our consolation
is abundant through Christ. 6 If we are being afflicted, it is
for your consolation and salvation; if we are being consoled, it is for your
consolation, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings
that we are also suffering. 7 Our hope for you is unshaken; for
we know that as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our
consolation.
Sharing
in sufferings, sharing in consolation, hope unshaken, abundance in Christ, the
connection between affliction and suffering. . . and then the Old Testament
lesson from Ecclesiastes, DeAnna and I had it read at our wedding.
9 Two are better than one, because they have a good
reward for their toil. 10 For if they fall, one will lift up
the other; but woe to one who is alone and falls and does not have another to
help. 11 Again, if two lie together, they keep warm; but how
can one keep warm alone? 12 And though one might prevail
against another, two will withstand one. A threefold cord is not quickly
broken.
We
certainly have a need for each other. . . a deep visceral and all encompassing
need, friendship, companionship, community, these are the things of life. . .
and in it all we share one amazing humbling end. . . . and it saddens us, does
it bring us closer to God and to each other, or do our fears and numbness drive
us apart? Is feeling too risky, too involved, too full of misery and pain, that
we instead choose the numbness of oblivion and solitude. . . “I am a rock, I am
an Island, and a rock feels no pain, and an Island never cries. . .” Yes, Paul Simon touches on it too, it is too
difficult to be a Bridge Over Troubled Water for someone, saying, “When you’re
weary, feeling small, when tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all. . .”
This is the language of compassion and empathy and love, and it takes on the
risk of feeling head on.
So Midweek I had all of these ideas
swimming through my head. . . and I’d come home to a quiet and lonely house. .
. and I’d wonder to myself, what am I going to add here, where is this going,
obviously there is a need, obviously we need each other, but how does it all
work, where do I go from here? You don’t have much Pete, just the obvious
longings and dangers of life, with no real specifics, nothing to connect it all
together. . . and then as I said, Mom called.
She called because they’d been away and
I hadn’t talked to them. She called because she knew I was by myself. She
called because she had, had a dream. She has a dear friend, Carla. . . and
Carla was just released from the hospital to go into hospice. . . She has a
brain tumor, and the aggressive surgeries that she has had, just haven’t
worked. . . and so she’s going home with a massive head wound, and still
growing tumors, to slowly shake off this mortal coil, and pass on. It so sad,
because she was so alive, just a few months ago. She was with her grandkids,
she was living her life, she was very much alive, and then the diagnosis, the
treatment, the surgery, left her in a hospital bed. . . without any positive
change. Mom was sad about her friend. . . but she had this dream. I wanted to
write it in verse form, to try and describe what she described to me. This
isn’t what mom said exactly, but it is what I heard, and tried to make sense of
beyond the words she spoke:
We
came to visit,
With
many friends.
There
was a line, it seemed,
But
everyone had their own
Unique
and special moment
Here
with Carla.
I
didn’t know the others,
But
when I stood there
With
her arm in arm,
I
felt as if there was only she and I,
And
we shared this moment,
In
peace, and gratitude
For
having been given each other.
I
don’t know what the others saw.
I
only witnessed my turn.
We
looked up into sky,
And
clouds shown white
In
the perfect blue,
Until
it all started to spin.
The
white exploded with color,
A
spiraling kaleidoscope,
More
breathtaking than I
Had
ever thought
I
had the power to imagine:
Colors,
dazzling beyond definition.
But
yet somehow
There
still was white,
And
out of the white came
Four
angels, just like you’d think,
Like
the one in the empty tomb,
Who
said, “He is not here! Risen!”
Indeed,
I felt peace,
And
I hoped as I woke,
That
my peace was meant
For
more than me,
But
that Carla, would be granted
For
her remaining time, such peace.
I
don’t know what dreams mean.
I
don’t know what dreams
May
come, when we have
Shuffled
off this mortal coil,
But
I have been given in this dream a gift
Because
God let me feel deeply.
He
let me feel the affliction of another,
Deeply
as if it were my own,
Not
leaving me in despair,
But
clothed in abundant hope.
I
know the depth of loss,
And
I believe it still means peace.
This
is what I heard in my mom’s description. This is what I heard in her breaking
voice. This is what I heard through the grief of her pain. And just like Mom I
felt connected and drawn closer somehow.
I don’t know what dreams mean. . . that
was a question she asked me, “What do you think about dreams?” I don’t know,
it’s mystical. . . and so much personal in the experience of something like
that. . . that it’s easy and safe to dismiss. . . but I know there is more to
the human mind than we have a grasp on. . . and in that mystery and not knowing
is a lot of room. . . a lot of room. What she felt was a moment of empathy for
another. . . so deep that it was beyond her control. . . and therefore came to
her recognition outside of her waking hours. . . but enough for her to
remember, and share it. . . and in so doing feel and spread the peace that she
felt in the dream.
To me this is what John Donne is writing
about, in what he calls “a borrowing of misery”. . . this is what Paul is
writing about. . . this is what the Ecclesiastes passage is about. . . the
blessing of affliction. . . the blessing of pain. . . the blessing of loving so
much that you are brought to tears by another’s affliction. . . the blessing of
life. . . to feel the pain of another person, and in so doing grow closer to
God, and to them. Is this the heart and soul of loving God and loving our
neighbor. . . may it by God please be so.
Let us pray. . .
May
our hearts be made full
May
our minds be connected
May
our imaginations soar
May
our dreams push farther than our limitations
May
our souls be rivers made deep with tears of compassion
May
our lives intertwine in bonds unbreakable
May
we love.
Amen.
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